2015 has already been a year of announcements: babies, engagements, moves, and exciting changes for so many people. I don't have anything exciting to share, but I did spend part of today "trimming" the lilac bush right by our back door while the girls enjoyed the almost warm weather. By trimming I mean, I'm working my way to hacking the thing down to six inches, because it needed some serious pruning. It's beautiful, but in the summer it blocks half of the steps coming out of the house into the backyard and interrupts my view from the kitchen window to the patio area. So while I hope it survives my brutality, I'm also welcoming the breathing room it's going to give us.
Sometimes, I feel the same way about my life: the desire to strip away everything and start at the beginning, or at least, with the basics. I often feel so far from where I want to be, from where God wants me to be. I think that desire is God's way of reminding me that the center, the root of my life needs to be in Him, and all the other stuff is just getting in the way if I'm not focusing on that. I think that may be the focus of this year, letting God trim (or hack away, as may be necessary) all those things that distract me from my vocation, and from Him.
While I was at
SEEK the first few days of this year, there was a schedule packed with amazing speakers and events. I got to hear snippets and the entirety of several talks as I flitted from room to room to get the
shots I needed. I heard a lot of incredible things, and even plan on going back to listen to more when I'm able (because my husband is awesome and bought the
talks so we could listen to them when we aren't working like crazy).
That being said, there was a singular event of those five days that truly moved my heart and brought things into focus for me: adoration with 9300 people on their knees worshiping Christ in the Eucharist. Not only was it one of those moments where, if we allow it, our hearts leap in joy at being in the presence of the True Presence, but it was a beautiful representation of the truly universal Catholic church and a reminder of something I think we all long to be reminded of:
You are not alone. The diversity of emotion can probably only be imagined, but I'm sure there was not only joy, ecstasy, and excitement, but also fear, confusion, and anxiety in those thousands of hearts that night. I know a recent catchphrase is "You are enough." This in itself is such a salve to so many souls, but I want to add to it. "I don't
have to be enough, because You, God, are enough."
Here's to a year of bringing things back to where they belong, to stripping out the excess and the distractions, to a year of hope.